RADICAL HONESTY

I spent last night watching a show (instead of studying for mid semester exams) called "lie to me", and in it there is a guy that practises radical honesty. He never lies; not even by omission.

ALL TRUTH ALL THE TIME.

I was impressed and thought about how simpler life would be if we took a page out of his book and gave radical honesty a try. Hey the truth is supposed to set you free, isn't it?

But what about the person who hears the truth, how free that is make him or her? Not all lies are told maliciously, there are the little white lies we tell to spare someone's feelings , or to be polite, the stuff we don't say because they are unnecessary; I mean do you really have to tell your mother that her favourite dress makes her look fat, or your girlfriend that last Christmas you got drunk and made out with a random girl you will probably never see again, or your husband that he doesn't even make the list of the top ten lovers you have ever had?

I guess, all I really want to know is; is the freedom we get from telling the truth worth the pain we might cause; does radical truth really simplify life or is it just an excuse to be a selfish, rude, in considerate but truthful person?

ROOFTOP

I went up there for a little air,

and found so much more

I found a friend with a ready ear;

He actually just listened,none of the judgement I fear

Such simple things should be easy to find

but surprisingly, amazingly they're not.

So thank you my friend,

for a wonderful night.

And I hope someday,

We'll be together again

Just sitting and talking . . . on my Rooftop.

HAVE STRAIGHTNER; WILL TRAVEL!

LONG, SILKY, HEALTHY HAIR, the mark of beauty in a female ( I was recently informed by a classmate of mine: a boy).

This got me thinking, I have a knack for helping others attain this ideal BUT personally I have been cursed with hair that refuses to grow past chin length.

In my usual pragmatic fashion, (yeah right) I have decided to stop moaning my own mane management issues and dedicate myself to the admirable goal of aiding my sisters in their bid to achieve long, silky, healthy hair, and hope that the gods of the tresses will see my good deeds and reward me accordingly.

But until my gift from the gods arrives I will stick to my refrain

"Oh! I like my hair at this length so I keep cutting it, I have no idea how to manage long hair ( like I couldn't learn)"

and occasionally escape from my reality with the help of other people's hair.

What makes a girl cheat on her Man?

Some people say a girl only cheats cuz she loves the new man more...... I say that nothing is ever black or white just shades of gray.

Someone once said to me

"I love a Man with all my heart, but I know another that can make me smile, and yet another that can make me soooooo MAD and yet I always forgive him, another reminds me of my lover and eases my loneliness when my lover is absent, yet still another has a body that makes me drool, and another gives me the kind of attention and care that cannot be ignored, and even a Woman who opens up worlds I never knew existed, so what that I have a Man I love with all my heart. Are there not different kinds of love and can I not feel them all for different people?"

I don't know what You would say to my friend but my answer is this:

Love is a commitment and a choice. You may fall in love with someone without intending to, but it's a choice to stay in love with that person and honour that commitment. So why sully that commitment by cheating on the one you love and then try to justify it by saying that there are different kinds of love...... Yes! There are different kinds and DEGREES of love, you love everyone differently and in the same vein the amount of feeling you have will differ from person to person ; some you will love deeply, others you will not love at all; So instead of spreading pieces of yourself and your love among different people why don't you give ALL of your love and yourself to the one person who truly loves you back and stick to the choice you made, for better or for worse.................

TORTURED

The room was well lit yet i got the same feeling one gets in a horror flick, just before the scary, bloodthirsty killer jumps out from behind the hero and saws him in half.

Then HE walks up to me and the torture begins .................

Up and Down, Left and Right, Side to Side

till every bone in my body aches

and every muscle burns with pain

this is pure torture and i willingly submitted to it

can i plead temporary insanity

i would give anything for some relief

and promise on all i hold dear that i will not consume another morsel if it will save me from another day at the gym................

UNDERTAKING

i promised myself that in 2009 i would turn over a new leaf;

• i would lose weight sensibly by undergoing a lifestyle change; i.e. healthy diet and exercise not drugs and starvation
• i would be a better daughter and sister, cuz i have a lovely family and they deserve better
• i would also be a better friend cuz let's face it i was a pretty crappy friend in the preceding years
• i would be disciplined and principled, work harder to achieve what i want in life instead of waiting for it to be handed to me (which it never is)

and several more resolutions to that effect.

Today i realized that it is October, two months to the end of the year and

• if any change has occcured with regards to my body size, then i have gained weight
• my family love me a lot, but it is not due to any special efforts on my part i guess they realize they are stuck with me so they gotta love me
• what few friends i had left i lost due to 'my lovely nature'
• and as for the discipline and principles; well seriously do i have to spell it out for you

i guess i better pray to God that i live to meet 2010 so i can try all over again....

The Diet Diaries- entry 1

Tomorrow I will embark on a journey to thinness

I will count calories

I will watch weight

till i'm but a sleek svelte size six.

I will run; I will walk

I will throw up; I will fast

till i'm nothing but a shadow of my former fat self

BUT remember i said......TOMORROW